a colored spectrum

sat in sch. sundae.

it is another dreaded Saturday morning.

though i've got Black Eyed Peas playing in the background - Where Is The Love? i am home alone, with me, my laptop, and my stereo playing. nothing gets better than this. it is an IDEAL.
(read : IDEALS are thing we want but we cannot have).

hey... Black Eyed Peas rules k? and yes, for all of you out there wondering, whether i am a 'eat-potato' Asian hybrid? well, i hardly speak/read/write Mandarin or more so, 'pu-tong-hua', which means common-language. ermm.. when i do speak Mandarin,i often have to wonder whether those poor folks would understand what i was trying to say. haha! Joshua's Dad asked if i studied Chinese in school, and what were my grades. gee.. they weren't that bad k? i least got a A2 for my A-levels Mother Toungue paper. haha! and got a B-grade for my A-Levels Chinese Lit paper... haha! ironic! thus, you judge.

anyway, back to the topic on Black Eyed Peas, they remind me of Jared! this song closed our many sweet Friday nights at Phuture, where we would dance and live up to the music; many lazy afternoons were spent fiddling with the stereo, using his turn-table software trying to mix our own music, synthesizing R&B songs with Rap or Hip-Hop. quite a challenge to make them sound smooth and sensible. otherwise, just chill out and chat in bed. now that Jared is serving the nation, social life is quite dull. one less chill-out / shopping buddy!

Jared's pretty close to me. he used to call me once he wakes up and disturbs me with nonsensical questions about "what did you do last night? did anything funky?"
duh.. how does he expect me to answer? "i was asleep???"

it's amazing how much we understand each other. he knows exactly how i feel, or what i think without me having to say more than i should. he is just as emotional as i am, despite trying ever so hard to upkeep a nonchalant, cool, emotion-less facade in front of others. he is selfless, patient and hopelessly giving when in love. we share the same grey bleak outlook about life, yet, we are dream-chasers. probably that is why we clicked the first time we met. he is one so-direct punk, somewhat liken to an expressway, who manages to slap me in the face with his words when i get too stubborn and cranky. yet, he loves just as much, hugging me close when there's no need for words. we can get as crappy and humourous as can be, yet serious and straight-talking!

admittedy, i adore him lots and a tad protective over him. although i am one who always gets myself into trouble, i do dispense some sound tangible advice when consulted. i do want the best for him! well, if he's around, he would definitely be going to WOMAD as well, and have a hell of a time of fun swooning over those nubile young ang-mo chics! barely above 14 and with ample full boobs, tight asses, and smooth skin! hah! that's gonna make me laugh! yeps, he called me last nite! unfortunately my mobile was off. dang!

well, he's single and available. so to all fabulous loving girls out there, grab this guy fast! super good deal! available @ Veen's Specialty Boutique! while stock last! heh heh! but, it takes the extra dose of chemistry to attract him! be warned!

To Jared:

hey baby... thanks for everything given. thanks for your jovial existence in my life. you injected many delightful and surprising moments into my otherwise monotonous days. looking forward to seeing you in the civilian again; let's go fishing! hugs and kisses! it's time you swinging bachelor settled down anyway! no, no more crazy bitches who drive you up the wall and round the world, but yes, 'she' does comes with brains! boobs included!

didn't exactly wanted to laze in bed further, the thought of Peleggi and his brain-fucking tutorial session on this coming Monday noon has this amazing immediate effect of yanking me out of my dreamy comfy bed and pop me into an huge ice-cold bucket of reality, yelling "GET OUTTA BED!" right into my ears.

for starters, i should indeed go shower and get prepared to leave for school. yes, time to go print notes again.... favourite weekly activity! (hah! as if you would believe it!) then, come home before 12noon or somewhat there, rest and start studying my notes before dashing out of the house at 5.30pm to attend WOMAD Day 2 which starts at 6.30pm! woohoo!

hmmm.... Joshua is not feeling good today. his Mummy woke him up at 9.30am when he has nothing to do in the morning. now he is all tired and grouchy. a tad irritated with everything. hugs boy! later rest and catch a solid afternoon nap yah. there's WOMAD Day 2 tonite so don't let your mood go down on the fun factor!

13 53 hrs. i'm now in school @ Central Lib. can't believe that mad Italian.... his required readings for this coming tutorial is in the closed stacks of the RBR! what the hell? i gotta wait an hour for them to retrieve the book before i can spend ages zapping it?! no way! i am going home soon, reserve that damn book online and pick it up on Monday. you know what? i think that (a) Peleggi is a nothing-better-to-do, i-wanna-screw-my-students son of a bitch.... (b) he is a slave-driver. no matter what, he knows how to spoil my saturdays, thus the title, sat in school.
(read: i sat in sch aka sat in library. or, saturday in school. whichever you think is better).

there's also another point to make to why i dislike Saturdays --- Day of Lousy Drivers!

the roads are dominated by drivers who assume that they are eligible to drive!!!
why not read Joshua's blog on Lousy Drivers?
he would be able to express wuch antagonies better.
there's a link from my webbie to his. ciao!

Sunday - why are triple scoops of ice cream topped with crushed nuts, chocolate sauce and whipped cream called Sundaes?

it's a dry and boring Sunday. nothing out of the extraordinary.

Grandma isn't happy with Joshua coming over to my place ever so often. she isn't happy with us spending solitary times at my house without her sharp supervision. she isn't happy with him having dinner at my place tonite, till 11pm when we were not disturbing her. she isn't happy with me going to school and coming home with him everyday, or more so, being with him everyday. she isn't happy with him, and me, for some things we did yesterday.

spent my day with Ayutthaya history. yawns. went to church for Mass in the evening at 5.30pm, today's sermon was about being humble and keeping ourselves at the lowest status so that we could be exalted through grace. met up with Joshua at 7pm. went to Fort Canning, chilled out at YMCA Mac's for a drink, took a short stroll in the city then came home for dinner. didn't get watch the final day of WOMAD. fun to attend but can do without. what i cherish is the simplicity of today.

did some reflections today. feeling directionless. my life lacks Purpose. i have no Aims in sight. there are no Motivations to Drive me on, welcoming my daily challenges.

Everything in this physical world is a temporal, in preparation for eternal life.

Sundays are meant to be spent with God and our dearest family. a celebrated union.

posted by Veen @ 10:20